Did you ever feel like you were just wasting away? Like you could disappear at any second? Slowly disintegrating and evaporating into the atmosphere around you. I feel like that today.
I have this horrible sense of regret that I just don’t understand? I feel like I missed my calling or something but I don’t what my calling was.. I have this heavy aching in my chest. It’s hard to breath but I’m not sick. Perfectly fine. Or at least that’s what I put off to people around me.
I feel like running away. Far, far away where no one I know would ever find me. I want to jump on the first plane leaving Ireland and run. Never looking back.. I feel selfish for feeling this way. How do you even begin to explain this feeling to the people who love you the most? I don’t know.
I want to sleep it off but it didn’t work last night and when I woke up this morning I felt worse. Could I just run away? Where would I go? I have no money. That right aching pain is rising up my throat and I’m fighting back the tears as I type.
But why..? I don’t understand.
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