A slightly happier beauty addict..

Unicorns,

Hope you’re all keeping well.

I haven’t really had anything to write about for the last few weeks, hence the lack of activity! My bad!

I finally moved house (old news) but more importantly, I put all my shit away. Yay!

Work has been hectic. Nothing new there! I’ve been trying to focus on my Instagram account (@justabeautyaddict) because I neglected the shit out of that as well. Now, I haven’t completely organised my makeup/workspace area but it’s some bit manageable that I can find everything and do some new makeup looks.

We have a spare bedroom in our house which would make a lovely office space and I would kill to make my makeup storage room. (I’ll have to have words with the boyfriend.)

I really want to get my YouTube channel up and running but I don’t currently have a laptop. I’m saving for a new one and when I have one I want to start uploading videos.

My health is still pretty bad. I’ve been in a lot of pain for the last couple of weeks and can’t take time off work because I can’t afford to be down money. I have hospital appointments coming up so hopefully I’ll get some answers.

Overall, everything is going pretty well. My life is slowly falling into place at last. It’s been an extremely tough couple of months but thank fuck I have a fantastic family and some really amazing friends. Without them, I don’t think I’d be here writing this!

Peace, love & unicorns!

Naomi x

Where’s Wally? Here I am!! Update.

Wow! I kind of forgot I had a blog..?

Just joking! 🙂 I’ve been so busy but the upshot is, I’ve moved house, I’ve been reunited with my baby >>insert ridiculously cute picture!!

And I finally have Internet again!!! I am a happy camper, to say the least.

I love my new house. It’s perfect in every way and I never want to move house again.. STREEEEEESSSSSSSSFUL!

So lots of posts and pictures and rants coming very soon 🙂

Peace, love and unicorns!
Naomi x

Where’s the light?

So I’ve figured that I’m only at the start or half way through my tunnel because I can’t see the light everyone is fuckin talking about, but, I do feel slightly better.

Life really does throw shit at you doesn’t it? I’m so close to giving up. I never imagined I’d be in this situation at this stage of my life. I always thought, that by now, I would have travelled half the world when in fact I haven’t even set sail. Again and again there’s walls flying up in front of me, forcing me to change my path.

So dark.

On the plus side, I’ve started writing again. Although it’s harder because I don’t have a laptop, so I’m physically writing words down! I always got a great sense of calm when I was writing before. I wonder why I only write when I’m depressed? Like I have to be in a certain frame of mind to put words down properly.

This may not make sense to anyone but it’s off my chest now, for today anyway.

No money, more problems!

Did you ever feel like you were just wasting away? Like you could disappear at any second? Slowly disintegrating and evaporating into the atmosphere around you. I feel like that today.

I have this horrible sense of regret that I just don’t understand? I feel like I missed my calling or something but I don’t what my calling was.. I have this heavy aching in my chest. It’s hard to breath but I’m not sick. Perfectly fine. Or at least that’s what I put off to people around me.

I feel like running away. Far, far away where no one I know would ever find me. I want to jump on the first plane leaving Ireland and run. Never looking back.. I feel selfish for feeling this way. How do you even begin to explain this feeling to the people who love you the most? I don’t know.

I want to sleep it off but it didn’t work last night and when I woke up this morning I felt worse. Could I just run away? Where would I go? I have no money. That right aching pain is rising up my throat and I’m fighting back the tears as I type.

But why..? I don’t understand.

Who’s a stupid bitch? I am!

Oh for fuck sake lads! I am a twat.

This is by no means a pity post. It’s more of a ‘don’t make the same stupid mistake I made’ sort of a post.

So, in Ireland, any bit of sun we get we feel the need to expose as much of our skin as possible for fear that we may never see mr sun again.

As you guys know, I haven’t been feeling the best and decided ‘fuck it, I can surely walk to the front door and sit in the sun’. So I did. Put on my shades, took off my long sleeve jumper and Jesus Christ within 10 minutes I was sweating down the inside of my face. DEAD HEAT!

So I sat their with my boyfriend,playing the guitar, delighted with myself that I didn’t have to stare at the tv for 1 more minute!!

Oh I made sure to drink my H20 for fear I might dehydrate but never once did it cross my mind to maybe protect my skin.. I dunno, with let’s say? SUNCREAM!!!!!! STUPID STUPID BITCH!

At first I was like, ‘ah it’s only a little bit red’, and now I’m eating my words and I want to die. My arms are on fire, my chest and shoulders feel like the molten lava from the pits of hell and my face looks like a genetically modified tomato.

Moral of the story. Buy factor 50 and never leave the house unless you have applied the entire bottle to your body! Even if it’s raining!

Peace, love and sunburns!!

Naomi x

Health issues ruining my plans!

Hey guys,

It’s been awhile!

If you followed my 30 day blog challenge closely you’ll know that the only reason I did it was to get into a habit of posting regularly. I had great intentions..

As you know I have some ongoing health issues that I thought had been resolved but clearly I was oh so wrong 😦

I have suffered with cysts on my ovaries since I was 16. I’ve had numerous operations and the most recent one was supposed to be the last one, as I was assured that I would have no more pain. That lasted for about 3 months?

So for the last 2 weeks I’ve had numerous doctor visits and 2 trips to the hospital. I’ve been unable to go to work and barely able to walk or even get out of bed. I even had to force my boyfriend to blow dry my hair because it hurts too much to raise my arms.

My periods have become an absolute nightmare and my irons levels have slowly dropped every month because of the amount of blood loss which has resulted in me being put on supplements to replenish my iron stash.

So about 2 weeks ago, after my period from hell ended, the pain didn’t go away. I continued to bleed a little bit on and off up until yesterday morning and then last night it appears my period has returned. So I’ve been bleeding now for 3weeks and now face another week long period.

I now have to wait to see a specialist, the same one who did my operation in February, before I will even find out what the problem is. My doctor has hinted at endometriosis but there aren’t any apparent signs of this in the scans I had last week.

So I have to wait for my appointment, which could take weeks or even months. Most days I sleep a lot because of the pain relief prescribed which is why I haven’t posted in awhile. There is so much that I want to do but I don’t think this is going to be as regular as I hoped.

Peace, love and unicorns!

Naomi x

30 day blog challenge. Day 30!!!!

Hey guys,

Today’s topic, ‘your highs and lows of this month’.

I’ve always had this feeling that karma has forgotten about me or I just have shit luck, but life is what you make of it. Despite karma being an asshole, I haven’t really had too many lows. I was a little stressed out about money and my health, which causes restless nights and bad skin breakouts, so I’ve just been super tired. We had a death in the family recently and not being able to be at home, because I have to work, and not being able to go to England for the funeral has resulted in me crying like a baby at the drop of a hat and me being homesick.

The highs of this month have been more plentiful, ever the optimist! I’ve been looking for work in England for the past few months and hopefully in a few weeks I’ll be able to fly over for some interviews and because of this I’ve also had to get my passport. Just so you know, I’ve filled in 4 forms since my passport expired in 2011 and FINALLY, last week, I actually sent it off. Go me! There’s also the possibility of moving house but if the move goes ahead I don’t really see a point. Of course starting the Instagram page and setting up the blog is definitely a high. I know it’s early days but I really enjoy it and it’s opening up a lot of doors for me.

I feel like I’m constantly struggling with life and there’s always something unexpected thrown in the mix but I think things are starting to look up for me 🙂

So this is the end of the blog challenge!! I am seriously amazed that I completed it (despite forgetting one post the other day) and just wanted to say thanks to everybody for reading and all the nice comments. Hopefully you feel like know me a little bit better 🙂

If you want to know what comes next, have a look at my previous post.

Thank you all again.

Peace, love and unicorns!

N x

30 day blog challenge. Day 29.

Hey guys,

Today’s topic, ‘your goals for the next 30 days’

Ok. So as some of you may know I post on Instagram, not as often as I should, products that I like or dislike and if I have a really strong liking or disliking for a particular product I’ll also do a blog post.

Over the next coming weeks I want to really concentrate on this and try and make it as regular as possible. There may also be a possibility of a a YouTube channel?? I don’t know if I have enough balls just yet though but definitely something I’m looking into.

I have a busy month ahead so it’s going to be quite difficult to do things as I’m planning but I’ll give it a try. I could possibly be moving house and moving to a different country also… Ooooohhhhh! Excited is a fucking understatement!

So yeah, social media and moving seems to be the main focus for the next month 🙂 and because I’m new to this and not much of a techie (and I don’t currently have a laptop) I honestly don’t know how to link things on my phone.. So you can find me on Instagram if you search ‘justabeautyaddict’.

Peace, love and unicorns!

N x

30 day blog challenge. Day 28.

Hey guys,

Today’s topic, ‘something that you miss’

I miss summer 😦

I miss the sun, the heat, my tan (not the tan lines), I miss walking on the beach and having sand in my shoes, I miss smell of the sea, i miss sunglasses, I miss ice cream, I miss BBQ’s, I miss chilling in the park with my friends and playing the guitar all day, I miss the smell of freshly cut grass and I miss wearing flip flops because I hate shoes!

What do you miss?

Peace, love and unicorns!

N x

30 day blog challenge. Day 27.

Hey guys,

So because I forgot to post yesterday, I figured I’d just post the 2 of them together? Sure why not!

The second topic of the day ‘a problem you’ve had’

Ha! Hundreds of problems. I think anything unsatisfactory or unexpected in your life is a problem, under certain circumstances of course.

I’ve suffered from depression, I’ve been homeless for a little while, I’ve been shit broke, I’ve been cheated on, I’ve been made a fool of, I’ve been walked all over by assholes, I’ve been taken for granted, I’ve been bad mouthed, I’ve been bullied, I’ve been fired and I’ve suffered with health issues since I was 14.

These are things that have made me stronger and the person I am today. I am not perfect. I’m sure I’ve made people feel these things too but you learn from your mistakes and keep going.

Peace, love and unicorns!

N x